*Yes. Yes, I am in fact a post whore. As well as a whore-poster. So... Yeah.
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"Your feet are cold," Zuko said the words in a funny way. Like he wanted to say something else, but that was what came out.
"I get cold if I go too long without firebending," she smiled, she didn't know why in the world she was doing so, because she wasn't happy. Or maybe she was. She couldn't tell yet.
He didn't ask or anything polite like that, but he pulled her body even closer to his and began to radiate heat like a fire. Zuko was a fire. A hot, wild, beautiful, dangerous, comforting, frightening fire. "Better?"
She nodded.
It briefly crossed Naomi's mind the peculiarity of the bedchamber, really nothing but a giant bed in the middle of the room. No windows to look out onto the sun, the beautiful sun that is so essential to firebending. It wouldn't have mattered anyways. She knew it had already sunk deep below the horizon to sleep, just like Naomi was supposed to be doing in her own home. Her mother was probably worried sick. Instinctively, she thought of
all the reasons she
should leave. She then realized she didn't care. She really was happy.
"I want to know more about you," Zuko said.
Naomi laughed, "What's there to know? I'm just the freaky weird girl."
He ignored her, "Before, I asked you about your father and you snapped at me. Why? Will you tell me about him?"
Suddenly, she was serious, "This is usually the part where I leave and you never talk to me again." Her tone was awkward and timid.
Zuko sat up, pushing her off his chest, "Well, do you
want to leave?" He scared her.
"No."
"Then stay and tell me about your family." The prince laid back down, she positioned her ear over his heart once again. She loved his heart beat. Fires are like heartbeats. Zuko had the strongest internal fire she'd ever had the pleasure of listening to.
Naomi began, "My mother is the one who takes care of me. She's the head of the Department of the People. She's controlling and nit-picky and projects all of the things she wishes for herself on to me. I love her, but she just doesn't understand..."
"What? What doesn't she understand?"
"Me. Why I'm here."
"Why are you here?"
Naomi paused for a moment, deciding whether or not to trust him. He was so harsh and blunt and rude, but it was a thirsty kind of persistence that she knew sprang from his own turmoil that he refused to speak of. She had to let him in so he could do the same for her.
"My father. He left us when I was nine. For a servant girl. They just ran away. He didn't even say good-bye. He didn't say he was coming back and he never did. I was sad, of course, but my brother wouldn't come out of his room for weeks. He got better for a couple years, but then he decided to run away to the army. He was ten. Like father like son, I guess. I haven't seen either of them since."
"I'm not sure which is more lethal--women or war."
She turned an embarrassed shade of carmine for a moment, then recovered, "I'm not sure either--one kills out of ignorance the other out of arrogance."
Naomi couldn't see it, but Zuko smiled slightly.
"You've tempted yourself with both, so I suppose it's safe to assume that you're ignorant and arrogant on top of being and awful, portentous jerk?" She tried to hide the laugh that was almost escaping from her lips.
He smiled more, despite his hatred of being called names, then turned serious again, "I'm sorry about your family."
She shrugged, "I don't think about it much. I try not to let it bother me and as long as I can keep my head on straight, it doesn't."
"You're strong."
"That's not what my mother says. She hates men now and doesn't want me around them at all. I'm weak for giving into them. To you. She would lock me in my room for weeks if she knew I was here. It's even worse since she knows how mean to me you used to be."
"Oh. Maybe you should leave," Zuko said timidly, not truly wanting her to go yet.
Naomi panicked and sat up so she could look the prince right in the eye, "No!" She felt stupid, "I mean, I can't let her win." He smiled slightly. She wanted his heat again and curled into him. "Tell me about your family." Instantly, she felt even more stupid than before. Everyone knew about his family. "I'm sorry. You don't have to answer that."
Zuko's brow hardened and he stared up at the ceiling. He looked like how Naomi did when she first started learning to send telepathic flames. Intense.
He ignored her apologies. "You know the stories of my sister and father. But my mother... She was so kind and gentle. No one has ever loved me like she loved me--except for Firelord Iroh, maybe--she sacrificed herself for me. My cousin Luten had just died and Iroh's bloodline ended. My father asked my grandfather if he could take Iroh's place, since his bloodline had ended. My grandfather refused told him he must know the pain of loosing a first born son. My own father was going to murder me. But my mother wouldn't let him do it. She saved me."
Naomi was quiet for a moment, not knowing what to say to something that shocking, "Why did you tell me this?"
"You remind me of her."
Naomi smiled.
"I miss her. A lot."
A sad peace was draped over them for a moment until Naomi asked softly, "Did he kill her? I can't imagine anyone killing their own--"
"I don't know," Zuko interrupted. "I have no idea what happened to her and I can't do anything about it." He practically threw Naomi off him and sat at the edge of the bed. He pulled at his hair and looked more hurt than she had ever seen him.
She timidly moved towards him and placed her hand on his shoulder, "Couldn't you just ask your father?"
From her slanted view of his face, she could see two furious tears run down his cheeks, "No! I killed him! He's dead, I killed him, because he wouldn't tell me. I lost my temper and I killed my own father! I'm just as horrible as he was." he screamed.
Startled, Naomi withdrew for a moment as tears gushed to her own eyes in shock and pity and something she couldn't name. She put her hand back on his shoulder.
"Let go of me," he said sternly.
"No," was her reply as she turned him to face her. "I'm not going to lie to you and tell you I know how you feel, because I don't. And I'm not going to say it gets better either because I have no freaking idea about that. But I know you are
nothing like him. Nothing at all."
"You don't know that." Zuko recoiled away from her again, Naomi turned his face towards her again.
"I do! When I was little, I hated that I was a firebender because I knew what destruction it caused. That was one thing my father taught me. I hated how I couldn't control myself. But then I learned that fire is love and life and everything about being human that's worth achieving. It's drive and passion and warmth. You are like fire the way I see it now, Zuko. You are warm and passionate and determined. He is fire like I used to see it--destructive and evil and all too powerful. Don't ever say you are like him again because you're not," Naomi nearly yelled.
He gritted his teeth.
She laughed, releasing her tension as she thought of an old anecdote, "Same with your sister.
She's just like him. Can I tell you something funny?" She continued anyways, even though he didn't say anything. "On the day of Sozin's Comet, I was serving as one of Azula's attendants, and before she 'banished' me... I, uh... Drugged her."
"What?!" Zuko shouted.
Naomi laughed harder, "Yeah. I put some funky herbs in her tea."
And for a moment everything was silent.
Then Zuko laughed and gave her a kiss on her forehead. And they both multiplied through the air and burned everything around them with fire that was like a sigh of relief, like a hundred thousand little vanilla scented candles.